“Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and that which cannot remain silent” Victor Hugo
Have you ever had one of those lightbulb moments when in a flash something changes inside of you? I remember one I had many years ago as if it were yesterday.
As a teenager I didn’t know where I fitted in. I drifted from job to job, moving a lot, with no fixed place to call home. I didn’t have a loving, supportive family to encourage my dreams. I felt I had no sense of direction, and no purpose.
I was at a party one evening with the usual crowd I hung out with, drinking too much, happy on the surface and yet strangely empty inside. It was the same thing we did every weekend.
I became aware of the music. Dark Side of the Moon was the album playing. Pink Floyd were one of my favourite bands and I had heard this song so many times before and yet as the track ‘Time‘ came on I found myself listening to the lyrics; really listening, as if for the very first time.
In an instant I felt illuminated from the inside out; becoming oblivious to my surroundings, unaware of any background noise. There was just the music showing me how precious life is, how quickly it passes and imploring me to make every second count.
I still didn’t know what I wanted but suddenly I was certain of what I didn’t want. I didn’t want to waste my precious life. I didn’t want to look back in 50 years time and not have achieved anything. I didn’t want to be out getting drunk on a Saturday night years to come.
22 years later and I took my son to the O2 Arena last week to see The Australian Pink Floyd.
As they played Time I became just as reflective as I had that evening long ago in the 1980’s. The difference this time is as well as knowing what I don’t want I am crystal clear on what I do want.
I am not so single visioned that I would bypass unexpected opportunities to get where I think I should be. It is important to be flexible and embrace change. I was thrown off my path rather harshly a few years ago following a car accident but I have managed to find new dreams that are now achievable for me. As long as I keep focused on all the positivity surrounding me, step by step, I will progressing in the right direction all the time.
For anyone feeling a little lost or unsure as to their direction I would really recommend grabbing a pen and making a list of what you don’t want or need in your life. This can sometimes be the easiest starting point. Then remain open for all the miracles life will offer you, they’re there everyday if you just look.
Lyrics to Time, by Pink Floyd
Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way
Tired of lying in the sunshine
Staying home to watch the rain
And you are young and life is long
And there is time to kill today
And then one day you find
Ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run
You missed the starting gun
And you run, and you run to catch up with the sun, but it’s sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in a relative way, but you’re older
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death
Every year is getting shorter
Never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to nought
Or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desparation is the English way
The time is gone
The song is over
Thought I’d something more to say
Home, home again
I like to be here when I can
When I come home cold and tired
It’s good to warm my bones beside the fire
Far away across the field
The tolling of the iron bell
Calls the faithful to their knees
To hear the softly spoken magic spells